Drowning – A Poem from Kitty Parsons

 

I, who have  floated  with outstretched ecstatic arms

over the jewel bright coral of the Red Sea,

 

Past the cavernous mouth of whale sharks

30 foot long in crystal waters off scorching Mexico,

 

In the dark cenotes where the roots of giant  trees

and the ticking of bats is companion to turtles,

 

I, who listens for the sea in my blood to comfort me,

The shock of the winter waves to revive me,

 

I, am drowning .

 

Deep down in the womb of the great mother ,

I am lost

 

My breath seared with salt, remembering the birthing of you.

Remembering your sharp cries

and the tug of your small insistent hand,

Growing ever more impatient in mine,

 

at the tidal edge of our shores,

over time.

 

How, when I struggled to bring you out of the ocean within me

To keep you connected to the moon drenched tide of my persistent  love

How can I be so unprepared for the storming fury of you

The rushing rage of you,

the tumbling spiteful words of you?

 

I was taken off my feet in the shallows by the force of your youth and your righteousness.

Brought down where the fishes gape and bright ribbons of grief hold me fast

My failings like slick blue sharks circle above

erasing the dappled star-filled light of a remote sun.

 

You have let go of my hand and gone back to the land

Your hard shoulders and the thunder of your retreating feet

Have made lead of my fearful bones.

 

I cannot follow and I cannot reach you

I  fear I am drowned.

Kitty Parsons

Kitty has forgotten how long she has been here now but she loves Pembrokeshire for its beauty and it's people. She spends her time searching out stories for pembrokeshire.online, swimming in the sea , drawing and painting as Snorkelfish and eating cake. She says "Pembrokeshire.online has been an opportunity to celebrate this beautiful county and its people. Keep the stories coming. We love to hear from you."

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